Resignataion?

I'm resigning. I'm resigned to the fact that I will find a job doing something I really, really love. I am accepting the fact that I will have to accept a job I don't necessarily really want just in order to get back to work. You're probably asking yourself what was my "aha" moment? Well, the three of you that read this might be.

I was watching the news about a week ago, running a story about the state of Rhode Island reducing hours for all non-essential state employees. Naturally, being caught up in this nasty recession myself, I understand why this is required. Towards the end of the segment, a brief interview with one of the affected employees was shown. She was hysterical. HY.STER.ICAL. She was crying and screaming that ...'it's not fair, how can they do this to me - this is my life'. And I suddenly thought to myself: Shut up, you cow.

Yep. She got no sympathy from me. Why? Isn't it obvious? She has a job. She's working. Even though it may now only be part time, she is doing something productive and worthwhile (at least to someone) and getting paid for it. I wanted to punch her in the face. There are MILLIONS of people like me, struggling to find something, to just get back to work. We don't want to feel like a drain on society. When I see "friends" post something online that speaks of non-working losers who just sit around and how they don't deserve help from anyone, I want to scream. Then I want to call them and ask how many people they know who have been laid off, let go or otherwise booted out in this recession. And I know, deep down, 99% of these insensitive morons don't really mean what they say, but they aren't thinking about it. So I resigned.

I have my second interview for this job on Friday. I was pushed past the second phone interview and moved right into the in-person interview because I did so well. I guess that makes me feel good, even though it's such a step back. Maybe, just maybe, this step back will turn into a giant step forward someday.

A girl can always hope, right?